This account will be closing down over the next few days.
If you've got SPAM or artwork faved, don't stress, it's staying up. However, comments will be turned off, and the artist descriptions will now redirect you to my new account.
It may seem like a melodramatic gesture, but it's part of a process designed to get me my old life back.
It's been no real secret that I suffer from chronic depression. Now a days it's harder to find artists who DON'T more than who do. What has been fairly secret was how bad it was getting. I am not the self harming type (but thank you very much to those of you who were concerned and sent messages) I am more the hermit away and stop doing ANYTHING type.
Last year my complete inactivity and loss of passion for anything I did got to the point where friends and family intervened. With their help, advice and advice from a professional, I took a year off to try and work things out- really work them out instead of band aid.
I am by all means not cured- it's the kind of thing you never cure, but I'm in a place where i feel I can start rebuilding.
I moved from my stuffy, claustrophobic dim apartment to a house in the mountains which I share with an artist friend. They help and push me when I can find no motivation, and I do the same for them (it's much easier to do to another person than yourself!) We both have a bright, airy studio. I even have a proper tilt desk and am in the process of seeing up a digital studio in the loft (exciting!) and on the advice of my psych, I'm starting my artist identity a new, working on a project designed to make me focus on finding what I love about my works again rather than doing what I think people want from me.
This has caused some odd results but has really really helped. I'm not friends with my art yet, but were at least talking again ^^
Some of you will be concerned with the fate of some of your favourite series of mine. Fear not! I have not abandoned them. I just need to make some changes:
Will continue eventually on the new account with a much different look. I honestly enjoyed doing them when I started, it was only later I felt them become a chore. The toony style I used to do them quickly felt cheap and cheating to me by the end and I resented it. I also tended to avoid doing more adult or gory gags out of fear I would get harassed by the "THINK OF THE CHILDREN!!!!!" crowd. Now I don't care, they can yell at me as much as they like, you will get you blood and dick jokes with no remorse. ABC-
Alas, this will not continue. I'm more invested in doing original designs now. This isn't to say I will not do the occasional fan based pin up, but it's not going to be consistent OR request based. I have a lot of trouble doing things that other people come up with. Jane Hook-
This is a prickly one. I am intensely angry about the situation surrounding Jane. She's been stolen so many times I simply can't chase down everyone who's using her images or her character on RP boards, instagram accounts or galleries. So, because I am a spiteful creature, she will continue, but be removed from her connection with Ever After High and simply be a rage filled, bisexual lolita styled pirate girl. Her imagery will be taking a way darker bent than the fluffy depictions of her on forums or personal RP accounts will like, which is the idea. I hope they choke on it. Fanart in general-
This will also continue, but probably not even remotely in the volume I used to. Sometime I enjoy drawing Kit Fisto as a Sailor Jerry styled tattoo, or Princess Peach Lolita styled or a melancholy fan piece dedicated to Dragon Booster, which still remains one of my favourite series ever, but these pieces will probably be few and far between.
Not many of you really followed this, which is fair becasue I was sort fo reeling around randomly with the story and designs. However, we've pretty much hammered out the story line now and this will not only continue, it will most likely take up the majority of my works once this current project is done. Anything else I'm forgetting??-
Kandi + Kandi, Melancholy, The Unnamed and Disturbing will all follow me. Kandi might be more explicit than some of you are comfortable with, Mel is getting a makeover, The Unnamed is about to get gorier and Disturbing is just that...
I will answer questions on this journal for a fortnight before replacing it with a generic "I have moved" Notification.
I Thank you all for your follows and your patience with me as I struggled through that hard time. I really appriciated it, even if I couldn't say anything in return.
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